A case of the *blahs*

January 29th, 2009

Pretty much everyone that knows me would say that I am an upbeat person. I try very hard to make others feel comfortable and laugh. My personal upbeat person is my husband. He is my best friend and makes me laugh. He always finds a way to make me smile.

My husband has been in New York teaching a class this week. In the current market, it is a blessing to have a job. I know that I shouldn’t be down, but I miss him terribly. We became spoiled for a month during December/January because he had vacation time and the class schedules were slow. We spent a whole month together without separation. It was wonderful.

This week has been hard on both of us. Not to say that life isn’t going on as usual. I am teaching our son, doing our activities, and taking care of our 86 yr. old Nana. My husband is teaching his classes, etc. However, we both miss our best friend.

We are coming up on being married 19 years in March. The funny thing is…the time hasn’t been slow or boring. It has really just sped by. We have both gone from young adults to young “old” people together. We are both starting to get: gray hair, aches and pains, and laugh lines. We have endured: numerous lay-offs, moving 8 times, having a baby, changing careers, deaths of loved ones, and much more together. As the saying goes: “What doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger”. Honestly, you can pretty much get through anything if you have the right person by your side. Mine happens to be in New York right now.

When my husband is gone, I don’t sleep well. Having a big bed to myself just seems selfish…LOLĀ  Really, I just miss my other half. I guess that means that I have found the one to spend the rest of my life with. When he is gone, I only feel half alive. I go through the motions of daily life. When he returns, I feel energized and ready to tackle anything.

If you are reading this (and are in a relationship), tell them you love them. Being in a relationship is tough. It takes 100% dedication on both sides. There are ups and downs. There are times when your loved one carries you emotionally. A good relationship is like that. You both go out of your way to help each other get through life. You are their friend, lover, therapist, confidant….

My Dad and I talked this last week about he & my mom. My mom passed away in 2001. He realized after my mom died that sharing your life with someone isn’t about the big events. It is the little things that you miss. Going for a walk. Raising children. Laughing and crying together. When your loved one is gone, those are the things you miss. The little things that made your relationship special.

So…I am feeling *blah* today. Thankfully, my husband will be home late on Friday night. That is tomorrow. I know that I will sleep really well and have a smile on my face while he is here. That is love. Making the most of your time with those that make you whole.

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